I’ve been trying to rebuild my faith, but it still feels so dull and disconnected. Does it even make sense for me to try to rebuild my Christian faith? Is this something I’m doing to avoid conflict; giving it one last try to avoid the inevitable conflict and disappointment that will boil over if I firmly walk away? This is the nagging fear gnawing away at me, but it’s partially imaginary. I’ve only told a handful of friends and family that I’ve started deconstructing my faith. I can only imagine – and imagine the worse – about how others will react. I’m still too caught up in what others think about me, and it’s hindering my growth.