I think I may be done with Christianity. It’s a little scary to say that (or type it), but I’m so bone-weary tired of it all. I was hoping to deconstruct and possibly rebuild my faith, but right now, that just doesn’t seem possible. If for freedom we have been set free, why does Christianity feel like such a cage? And a suffocating one at that. Can I stay in a system that triggers depression and panic attacks? But I feel like a failure because it doesn’t cause such things in others. Am I just extremely weak? Is my experience invalid since so many are able to walk the Christian path in happiness and security? My thoughts are muddled and I just want to surrender to apathy. Where to go from here?